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  This book is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, businesses, and incidents either are the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to events or locales or to actual persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.

  First edition: May 2016

  Originally Published February 2014

  Copyright © 2016 by Cheryl Bradshaw

  Cover Copyright © 2016 by Indie Designz

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  VEGAS DREAMS NOVELLA SERIES BY CHERYL BRADSHAW:

  Sweet Dreams – Rae’s Story (Book 1)

  Shattered Dreams – Sasha’s Story (Book 2)

  COMING SOON:

  Stolen Dreams – Callie’s Story (Book 3, July)

  Summer Dreams – Kenna’s Story (Book 4, September)

  My name is Sasha. No nickname, in between last names. And this is my story.

  My quest for love began four months ago in the worst way possible—standing in line at the county clerk’s office holding a pile of self-printed divorce documents in my trembling, not-so-hot little hands. My options, the statutory grounds for divorce in Las Vegas, were threefold:

  Option One: Incompatibility.

  Option Two: Insanity, for two years prior to the action.

  Option Three: Spouses living separate and apart for more than one year.

  Option Four, the one I wanted, the one I deserved to tick with a big, fat, juicy checkmark, didn’t exist. If it had, it would have said:

  OPTION FOUR: LYING, CHEATING SCUMBAG

  And bingo, we would have had ourselves a winner.

  Given my present predicament, my initial thought had been to choose “insanity,” because in my mind, Damon (my soon-to-be ex) was certifiable, having spent a generous portion of our marriage in every other marital bed but mine.

  Too bad insanity didn’t work that way.

  I couldn’t select Option Three because, at the time, we’d only been apart for several months. That left one choice—incompatibility, defined as:

  Unable to exist together in harmony.

  Contrary or opposed in character.

  And the granddaddy of them all: Unable to belong to the object simultaneously.

  Since Damon had the extraordinary talent of belonging to several objects simultaneously, this one didn’t seem to apply either. I had to choose something though, so I selected “incompatibility” and baby-stepped my way up to the counter, silently affirming to myself that this was necessary—I could do this.

  I forced a smile at the fifty-something, gray-haired woman on the other side of the counter. She didn’t smile back. She didn’t even look back. Instead, she focused on the dusty, metal clock on the wall while pressing her thumb to the tips of her fingers like she was counting down how much time remained before she could take her long-awaited lunch break. I guess I couldn’t blame her—it seemed like a shitty job as far as jobs go.

  “I, umm ... want to file these,” I croaked.

  My throat was scratchy, making it near impossible to get the words out.

  “Separation or divorce?” she grumbled.

  “Divorce.”

  She snatched the paperwork from my hands, riffled through the pages. “Has your husband agreed to the divorce?”

  “I wasn’t aware he needed to agree to it before I—”

  She did a blatant eye roll, making sure I physically witnessed just how short-tempered she was with me.

  “You filled out the wrong paperwork.” Her tone indicated it was something she repeated multiple times each day. It also indicated the paralyzing need she had to point out my stupidity.

  “This is a Joint Petition. You need to fill out a Complaint for Divorce. If he’s going to fight you—on anything—honey, take my advice, get a lawyer.”

  “Can I fill out the right forms myself with a—”

  She tossed the papers back to me and peered over my shoulder, indicating the free advice portion of her day was over, and shouted. “Next!”

  And just like that, we were done, and I was screwed, just not in the way I deserved to be.

  Damon was a lawyer. He worked for one of the best firms in town. He had connections,

  and those connections meant if he wanted custody of our two girls, he’d find a way to get it. Not that he wanted custody. Even when we were together, he was never home. But he’d ask for it anyway, just to show me he could.

  At first, I believed our divorce could be an amicable one. I pictured the two of us sitting down together like a couple of mature adults, or one mature adult and one adult version of a child. He’d sign, I’d sign. It would be over and I could pretend my marriage to world-class womanizer Damon Chase never happened. Well, all except for our two kids, the family dog, and the lifetime of photos we’d taken together on the days he elected for family life instead of a night out on the town with one of his whores.

  Ten years.

  Ten long years of the lines becoming so blurred, I couldn’t differentiate a lie from the truth anymore.

  Damon was nothing if not skilled in the art of deception. I never actually caught him engaged in sexual activity with one of the hordes of other women he pimped himself out to on a nightly basis. He was smart. He was sneaky. He had two cell phones. One I knew about, and the other to accommodate his I’m-staying-late-at-the-office-honey-but-I’m-really-not bootie calls.

  Every electronic device Damon owned was password protected. His phone, his laptop, his tablet, all of it. His reasoning? It was imperative in order to protect the privacy of his clients, in case, perchance, something of his was ever stolen. And this little naďve housewife had believed it—every spoon-fed, sugar-coated fib.

  Until one day.

  Because ladies, no matter how hard a person tries to conceal a secret life, it’s impossible not to slip up from time to time. Secrets have a way of seeping out when you least expect them to. Karma wouldn’t be karma if they didn’t.

  Two Days Earlier

  It had been six months since I left my husband, and I still didn’t have a lawyer. What I did have was several late-night liaisons. I’d been licked, flicked, and whipped—well, almost whipped, once. Most single women would probably relish the lifestyle. I didn’t. Men didn’t make love to me. They had sex with me. When it was over, we both went our separate ways, in a very “twain will not ever meet again” scenario.

  At present I found myself beneath the sheets of a king-size bed, in a fancy hotel room on the Vegas strip. Asleep next to me was a male who looked a little like a man and a lot more like a college frat boy. His name? Ryan or Rowdy. Or was it Randy? I didn’t quite remember.

  The man—whom, for now, I called “R”—was pretty and toned with pale, blue eyes and blond, Owen Wilson hair. He was minus the endearing, crooked nose though. His snout was narrow with a pointy tip that curved just the slightest bit upward. Although he had a baby face, I imagined his age was somewhere around twenty-five, making me four years his senior. Anyone younger wasn’t suitable or acceptable, at least not in my mind. I was no cradle-robber, and I wasn’t a super-sized cougar either.

  I eyed R, resisting the urge to lean over and tuck one of his stray, wispy locks behind his ear. He wasn’t mine. And he wouldn’t ever be mine. He was a loaner, a temp, staying with me just long enough to get what he needed until he moved on to the next girl.

  While he slept in a deafening, snoring slumber that sounded like the noise a ship made when leaving port, I sat with my knees curled in front of my chest, arms draped around them.

  What was I doing? />
  This wasn’t me.

  And I couldn’t pretend it was even if the thought of it made it easier on me.

  Not anymore.

  So why was I doing it?

  I’d thought if I did what Damon did—romping it up with anyone with a pulse—somehow I’d feel better, even the score, be able to process the pain of playing second fiddle over and over again. I convinced myself my own one-night stands would fill a void a decade in the making. As hard as the truth was to accept, sitting here finally processing my feelings, I realized I actually felt worse. I felt alone. And I knew it was time. Time for it all to stop.

  I cleared my throat loud enough to stir the occupants of the next room, but R didn’t wake. I nudged him, kicking him in the shin. Not hard enough to leave a bruise, but enough to get his attention.

  His eyelid slid open. He smiled. “Hey there, Tasha.”

  “It’s Sasha,” I corrected.

  He cocked a finger at me in the shape of a loaded gun. “Sexy Sasha ... right.” He glanced around, squeezing his eyes closed again like they couldn’t bear the light beaming through the window. “What are you doing up already?”

  Already? It was almost time to check out.

  “Couldn’t sleep,” I said. “I’m going to go, okay? Thanks for the ... well, thanks.”

  I supposed I could have slipped out without bidding him the awkward adieu, but sneaking out like nothing had ever happened wasn’t my style. If I was going to do the walk of shame, I’d do it with my head held partway high.

  I stood.

  “Don’t go yet,” he said. “Come on. Come back to bed with me.”

  He reached over, wrenching me backward until my top half was draped over his bare, sporadically hairy chest. He cupped the tips of his fingers over my shirt and squeezed, as if the feeling of my breasts being pinched with a clothespin got my rocks off. “Stay. Let’s go for round three.”

  “Round two.”

  “What?”

  His brow furrowed. Confused.

  “It, uhh ... only happened the one time last night,” I said. “One condom. One time.”

  He whipped his head to the side, his bangs temporarily brushing across one ear before sliding back over his eyes again. “Nah ... you sure? I’m sure I brought more.” Let me check my pants. I’ll find ’em.”

  “It’s okay, really. I’m very sure you only brought the one.”

  And it had been very fast too. On top of me one minute, sawing logs the next.

  “You kinda look like you weren’t satisfied last night,” he said.

  I couldn’t think of a nicer way to phrase it. And odds were I’d never see him again after today, so why try? “It was okay. Don’t worry about it. Okay?”

  The mortified expression on his face was the exact one I’d hoped to avoid. It’s the one all men get when they realize they have something to prove. R wasn’t about to let me leave without one hell of a wild ride.

  “We could, umm ... do other stuff. I’m really great at—”

  I broke from his embrace. Stood. Again.

  In one last attempt to change my mind, he whipped the covers off his body, exposing a part of him I didn’t want to see in the sunlight, and said something to me that included the word “drill.”

  I considered.

  Then I reconsidered.

  The drilling part was appealing, but the filling required feelings, emotions, trust.

  And I had none to give.

  “Look,” I said, “before you offer to make up for last night by revving my engine with your cordless drill, let me say this—I’ve been there, I’ve done that. Thanks for the offer. Last night was, ahh ... quick. Nice to have met you.”

  Hey, I could have said mediocre.

  At least I didn’t go for the jugular.

  My doorbell rang, and considering my husband Damon wasn’t due to drop our girls off for another four hours, my suspicions rose as to whom might be standing on the other side. Maybe he’d already had his fill of our children and had brought them home early. It wouldn’t be the first time.

  I released the deadbolt and opened the door, surprised to see my closest friends Rae, Kenna, and Callie. Hands on hips, they entered my house, none of them smiling. I surmised I was in some sort of trouble.

  “What’s wrong, guys?” I asked. “What’s this about?”

  Rae, the outspoken leader of the trio, spoke first. “This is an intervention.”

  I waved my hands in front of me. “Oh, no. No way. You’ve got to be kidding.”

  “’Fraid not,” Kenna added. “You can’t say you didn’t know it was coming.”

  Not wanting to be the only one without a voice, Callie pointed to a chair. “Yeah, so sit down and listen to what we came here to say.”

  She looked at the others like she expected a gold star for bravery.

  “When do you get the kids back?” Rae asked.

  “Tonight, why?”

  “And tomorrow they’re back in school, right?”

  “Yeah, why?”

  Rae stuck her hand inside a lime-green Prada handbag slung over her shoulder, pulled out a stack of papers, and slapped them down on the coffee table in front of me. “It’s been six months, Sasha. Six!”

  “Yeah, I’m aware. I’m going to do it. Really, I am. I’ve just been working up to it.”

  “It’s time to kick that man into the past where he belongs.”

  “I still don’t feel ready yet.”

  “Of course you’re ready. You were ready the day you booted his ass out of this place. You’re scared. We get it. Damon seems big and powerful, and you don’t think you can take him down without him ripping everything from you.”

  Rae exchanged glances with Kenna like she’d just passed her an invisible torch.

  “All we want is for you to do what’s best for you,” Kenna said. “For your girls, for your future. And most of all—for yourself.”

  “Yeah,” Callie added. “What they said.”

  “I’ll think about it,” I responded. “He’s a powerful attorney with powerful friends. You all know that.”

  Rae sat, folded her arms in front of her. Not a good sign. Ever since she’d “found herself” the year before, she was determined to get what she wanted when she wanted it. “This isn’t a discussion. We’re not here to weigh the pros and cons, and we’re certainly not here to give you a choice.”

  “But, it is my choice. And I have to do what I think is best.”

  “Great. We want you to do what’s best too.”

  “I ... don’t follow.”

  She pointed at the paper. “We’re here to make sure you fill out the divorce paperwork.”

  “You can’t just—”

  Kenna clicked the end of a pen, handed it to me, grinned. “We’re not leaving here until you do.”

  “You wouldn’t force me to—”

  “We can and we will,” Kenna said. “It’s either this, or we fill it out for you.”

  I waited for Callie to add another “yeah.” She didn’t. She just sat back and smiled, allowing the other two to do the dirty work.

  “I still haven’t hired a lawyer,” I said.

  It was a valid excuse, and an honest one.

  “No need,” Rae said. “You already have one.”

  “How?”

  “I hired him on your behalf.”

  “Without talking to me first? When was this?”

  “A month ago,” Rae said. “He’s on retainer, waiting for you to decide you’re ready. Today I told him you were.”

  “Why didn’t you tell me about this before?”

  “It wasn’t the right time.”

  “And now?”

  “Now it’s time to stop dragging your feet,” Rae said.

  “We’re doing this because—” Kenna started.

  “You love me. I know,” I finished.

  “We do,” Callie said.

  Rae grabbed a binder off the kitchen counter, stacked the paperwork on top, and slid it in my directio
n. “You ready to take your life back?”

  Was I ready to take my life back? It was all I’d thought about for months. Cutting the cord had just proved harder than I initially thought it would be. Looking into their eyes, I realized they were right. Whatever mud Damon was about to sling in my direction, I couldn’t live in fear of him anymore. I sat back, looked at the first page, and nodded.

  It was time.

  Two hours and one energy drink later, I read the last line, penned the final signature, this time on the correct paperwork. Confident Rae would get what she came for, Kenna and Callie had forsaken the cause, leaving when I was three quarters of the way through. They promised to follow up with me the next day to ensure the deed had been done. As they left, they’d whispered something in Rae’s ear, making me feel like there was something else going on.

  “You said you would help me,” I said.

  “I am helping you,” Rae responded.

  “Not now—then. When I first left Damon, you said you knew how to change my life. Six months and nothing’s changed.”

  “I’d say a lot’s changed.”

  “Are you trying to be funny?” I asked.

  “Six months ago, the only man you’d slept with in the last ten years was Damon.” She jabbed my side playfully with her elbow. “Can’t say that now though, can ya?”

  I frowned.

  “Do you have it out of your system yet?” she asked.

  “What—sleeping with other men?”

  She shook her head. “Everything you’ve bottled up inside.”

  “I’m done spending the night with random men, if that’s what you’re asking.”

  “Glad to hear it, but that’s not what I’m asking. If I’m going to help you, you need to stop playing the role of the woman scorned and trust me.”

  “I’ve been through a lot, Rae. It’s not like I can just switch off what happened, forget everything he did to ruin us, ruin our family.”

  “You know what I hear? Two things. You’re scared and you’re not ready. But you’re wrong. You’re a lot tougher than you give yourself credit for, and, you are ready.”